Saturday, 1 May 2010

Here Comes The Fear......

I am a manly man. Hairy, virile and so testosterone filled that I can make things explode just by looking at them with one arched eyebrow. 

But even this perfect specimen of human evolution has phobias and fears. It doesn't make me any less of a man, more like when those sculptors in those olden times used to knick the plaster of their creations because they couldn’t handle all that perfection staring them back in the face. The flaws made them better in their eyes and that's more or less the same with me.

That's what I tell myself anyway.

Here are my fears.

1) Clowns.

This all stemmed from walking through Covent Garden at the age of about six with my parents. Now in Covent Garden you always get street performers doing their, frankly shit, act whilst being surrounded by crowds of tourists at any given opportunity. On this particular time there happened to be a creepy looking clown juggling. So of course, the moment he saw me wandering by, he had to pull me out of the crowd and make me part of his act, the absolute bastard.

So what did he make me do?

He made me dance for the crowd.

That's right, the creepy clown made me dance on the spot for the baying masses. I don’t know what exactly I was dancing too, but dancing away I was. This was my first taste of abject humiliation and has kind of mapped out my entire life since then. Even now I have reoccurring dreams of lots of people clapping their hands and urging me to dance faster and it all stems from that fucking clown. Or I might have got it mixed up in my head from the time I got drunk at Spearmint Rhino strip club and ended up half naked on stage gyrating to Aerosmith's Love In An Elevator.

Either way, clowns freak me out.  

2) Spiders.

Spiders are bastards. There is no clearer way of putting this. The little ones are okay, I can handle them. Some are even quite cute in a spindly “Oh my god I must get away from this giant human” kinda way.

But the big tossers, those with fangs, a million eyes, and long legs that are made for wrapping round your head while you sleep so it can plant its eggs in your brain, I hate them.

I used to love spiders as a kid. I would collect them and make homes for them in shoeboxes. I had a house spider called Dave for about seven months. He was my friend. I made him the coolest condo ever. It had a bottle cap filled with water for when he wanted a drink, a little compartment where he would live, and the rest of his box for his web, which he filled in about three days.

Dave was brilliant.

The he escaped and I never saw him again.

I won’t lie to you. I was very cut up.

But I don’t think my fear of spiders has come from some sort of arachnid abandonment issues. I mean, it’s not like I go into dank garages, peering into dark corners whispering “Dave?”. No, the fear just seemed to spring up overnight. Suddenly spiders freaked me out. I would get the shivers and shakes every time I saw one in real life or on the TV.

Last year I was in Florida, wandering around the Animal Kingdom at Disney, when I saw a nice looking lady with a Perspex box standing idly by and it pricked my curiosity.

“Hello, “ I said, wandering over. “What do you hav- JESUS CHRIST?”  

i suddenly found myself pulling a ninja stance in front of the startled lady due to the fact that she had the biggest fucking tarantula ever sitting in the box that was staring evilly back at me.

“Its….it’s a Goliath tarantula.” she stammered back, more afraid of me than the fact that she had the Devils very own pet in her hands.

“You should warn people what's in there before they come over,” I replied crossly. “Standing there all innocently with a box. Bad woman. BAD WOMAN!”

And still pointing at her, I walked away.

I don’t like spiders.

3) Flying.

The middle bit I am okay with. It’s taking off and landing that do my head in. It’s just not natural. During these moments you can find me whispering to God “Please big man, just make it take off. Just get it in the air safely.” Then I realise that I don’t believe in God and feel a tad foolish as I have just been whispering to a make believe person when I could have been grabbing the person next to me by the lapels and screamed in their face “HUMANS AREN’T MEANT TO FLY!! WE ARE GOING DOWN!!!!!!”  

My one biggest fear is that during the take off, fuelled by adrenaline and fear, I force my way into the cockpit to find a six foot brown recluse spider flying the plane with a pilots hat perched jauntily on its head.

Now that would probably finish me off, truth be told.

4) Claustrophobia and Vertigo.

So that tiny little elevator that takes you all the way to the top of the Eifel Tower? Well, that was like my own personal nightmare and the water was very, very warm. Going up it I almost chewed my way through the walls of my metal prison in fear. By the time we got to the top, I really wasn’t in the mood to see the whole of Paris spread out magnificently below me.

“Ah mate, it looks great, doesn’t it?” my friend Mark said, looking around for me. “Dan? DAN?”

“Yep, its brilliant mate,” I replied from the floor where I was spread-eagled, hugging the metal with my cheek pressed firmly into its cool surface. “Can we go down now?”

I can laugh about it now.

Actually I can’t.

It was fucking horrible.

5) Tidal Waves.

Huge mile high bodies of water, towering over you with no escape.

Are you telling me you wouldn’t be scared of that?

6) Chickens.

We used to visit some friends in Lincolnshire that used to live on a farm. One time (I think I was about nine) I went to feed their chickens in their coop. No lie there must have had about 50 chickens, all running freely in their chicken like way. I went in with a bucket of feed and began to chuck it around like I had been shown.

Chicken frenzy.

Now I don’t know if you have ever been ganged up on by 50 chickens, but at the age of nine, it’s terrifying. They knew I had food. They knew I was venerable. Chickens can sense fear. They began pecking at my ankles, getting in my face and clucking. I panicked and just threw the feed up in the air.

Bad mistake.

Chickengeddon.

The coop exploded in a mass of feathers, clucks, and one screaming boy.

I staggered out of the coop covered in bird shit, feathers and with tiny pin pricks of blood all over my body from their beaks.

Did I mention that my favourite food is chicken?

Yeah, peck me now bitch.

I will stop there with my fears, there are many more, like my fear of older women with gold handbags and matching shoes, sideburns, tuna, ABBA, and the colour beige, but to list all of them would surely make me seem like the world’s biggest wimp.

And I’m definitely not that.


ARRRGH!

15 comments:

Jean said...

Hilarious! I swear I am not laughing at you :)
I'm sorry that Dave left you, maybe that's where your fear of spiders came from, maybe its not the spider you fear but the abandonment you would feel if one left you again. ;)

JenJen said...

oh honey...I had to skip the entry about clowns because I'm scared too and couldn't even stand to have that picture on my screen.

And? Dave crawled into yer brain via your tympanic membrane while you slept...he's not really gone.
Feel better about his magicppearance now.

Great post and fucking hilarious as usual powered by your brilliance.
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Lo said...

I loved this blog....great writing.
I can't believe I am saying this but I just realized I have a clown thing too......not so much a fear as a monstrous loathing.....also includes mimes.
Keep on blogging.

hope said...

A large wave cresting 15 feet over my head, just about to break and drown me....yep, that's my big fear and a reoccurring childhood nightmare. *shudder*

Sure, Dad didn't MEAN to grab onto the float and hold it down while he scanned the ocean and screamed for me...little ingrate, me who wouldn't answer because I was UNDER said float. I kicked him in the shins. He let go then alright. ;)

Eva Gallant said...

Hilarious! Chickengedden! Great post, great writing!

Alice in Wonderland said...

Loved this, no it was just so funny!
Tim Curry freaks me out as "Pennywise", but then I just imagine him as he is in The Rocky Horror Show, then the thought of him dressed as a Transvestite sorts out that problem. I'm not that bothered about spiders or heights, but I'm like you on flying. I mean, if we were meant to fly, we would have been born with wings, right?
Now, water has always bugged me. I mean, I don't mind the bath, in fact I love taking a long bath, and I love walking near our stream or river, but, yes, I've seen these movies too, and yes, they scare the crap out of me too!

Love your new background!
Hey you've not been around in a while, or have I just missed you?
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Just thought that you should know that, and that you can stop worrying about it!
Big hugs!

Linda Medrano said...

You, Sir, are a knuckehead. A hilarious knucklehead, but still! Love this post! Freaking awesome!

Jessica said...

I'm so freaked out by clowns that I had to scroll past that damn picture (sorry, Mr. Curry) and did not read most of that paragraph.

I'm ok with heights as long as something is not moving nearby (eg: I'm fine on the observation decks of tall buildings looking down, but hiking behind an extremely high waterfall causes vertigo because of the moving water).

The Vegetable Assassin said...

ABBA?!?! Shame on you! :)

I used to work with tarantulas once upon a time (for real, don't ask) and I got quite attached to them. They like to sit on your palm and let you stroke them. It IS a little unnerving when you get a particularly energetic one though - one that likes to explore by shooting up your arm onto your head. The first time that happens you forget your cool exterior and say some bad words but they mean no harm! Other bugs though I hate. I hate bugs. Viciously. Just not spiders. I am odd.

I'm with you on flying though. It's not normal shooting through the air in a metal cylinder filled with aviation fluid at 500mph. I always have a window seat so I can periodically (that is, every ten seconds) check that the engines are still attached to the wing, so that if anything is amiss I can stand on my seat and alert the cabin crew by screaming, "OH MY GOD WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE!"

ABBA though. Good God man.

Millions Of Atoms Man said...

I also have the same fear of clowns that many people have. I think that is because I married one and subsequently got divorced a year later. You think sad clowns are bad? Try "clowns with divorce lawyers and incriminating photos".

*shudder*

Amber said...

I saw that picture of the Eiffel Tower and thought that you were going to say that you had an irrational fear of it. Alas, it appears that I am the only one.

aladdinsane12 said...

yes, it DOES make you less of a man to have fears.

just kiddin. chickens? really? i get that chickengeddon would be a horrific experience, but still- i'm pretty sure they're too dumb to even do anything.

and that fucking clown. what a bastard- making you dance in front of strangers!? not cool.

and i think it's very weird that both you are my boyfriend are both named dan and you're both afraid of flying, clowns, and spiders. strange...

Tony Spunk said...

Hey there man. I gotta tell ya, spiders and El Spunkarino don't get along either. Those crawly fuckers get everywhere and I'm not ashamed to admit I like to get my cleaning lady to deal with them. I don't know what's more of a pussy statement, getting my cleaning lady to deal with spiders for me or the fact I have a cleaning lady. Also, clowns should be shot. I think this sentiment is universal.

Ben Hutchins said...

You got me at clowns. Too funny, really. My wife HATES clowns. They scare her too. This was a clever post, which evoked lots of laughs.
Thanks.

Saskia said...

This post is epic.

Loving Dave. So sorry he decided to leave for pastures new ;-)

Clown show participation would have put me in therapy - absolute nightmare!

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